Thursdays

Why oh why does Logan insist on waking up at obscene times on Thursdays? 6:30am is just too early, plus it throws the whole day off, and naptime is always an ordeal...and I work Thursday nights!! It's like he KNOWS!!

So yesterday we began our Lupron injections. I actually gave it to myself, didn't have Brian do it!! It wasn't so bad, it didn't hurt at all yet I almost passed out because of the anticipation...I'm such a wuss! I can stick people with needles, start IV's...and I could care less but when it's ME!! Break out the smelling salts!

I really hope this works and we can just be done. If it doesn't work we still have 2 more cycles the insurance will cover (they don't count cancelled cycles towards our limit), but I think we will be done. I think Logan will be it, or maybe we will discuss adoption. I can't go through this again, just the dwelling on it part is bad enough and we haven't even really gotten into the meat of it yet.

Our nurse at the fertility clinic yesterday was a friend from schools older sister. Normally one would probably feel awkward but being a nurse I could care less. She did IVF to conceive her 3 year old twins so that made me feel a little better as well.

Through all of this i keep thinking of Corey and Jessica : ( Faith and Addison have now switched places and Faith is breech so it's looking like a c-section for Jess. The doctor was kind of leaning towards that anyways, especially if Faith does make it to delivery, so they can have more control over the situation. I really hope she makes it to delivery so that they get to meet her and hold her while she is still alive. Everytime I really think about it, I just cry, I can't imagine something happening to Logan, and I don't know how Jess is doing this, she has some strength.

I'm not even going to discuss the election here...I'm still too bitter!! My mom of course the democrat and I have been having a war of words since yesterday...it's all in good fun of course, but I really know how to rile her up and I'm enjoying it : )